sentiments and poems

Karma test

2007-07-03T07:17:00.000-07:00

I took a KARMA test and my result....out of 1,000..i got 826 KARMA POINTs...

"Shine, your personalized test results indicate that over the past year, you've earned826 karma points out of 1000 potential karma points." WHOA!

HIGHLIGHTS are:

***In your concerted efforts to do what you can for the greater good, you generate positive karma for yourself and the universe

***Noble actions represent the most direct and literal expression of karma. In other words, when you do something good for someone else, something good will come back to you.

***Karma is different from coincidence or destiny or luck. Karma is the universe's infallible justice system. According to karma, what goes around comes around and you get what you give. Karma states that nothing is by chance or luck. Instead, karma is based on anything you intentionally think, say, or do. According to the laws of karma, your past actions have determined your present life, and your present actions are shaping your future. The generation of karma is an ongoing process. This means that your actions today, or on any given day, will directly affect your lifetimes of tomorrows.

***Karma is known as "natural law," which means that your actions will bring equivalent rewards or punishments regardless of whether another person ever knows about them. In this way, your future is always in your own hands. You have the opportunity to reform or enhance any area of your karma in any given moment. It's believed that by building your individual karma, you guarantee that good things will come to you in the future. Achieving good health, financial well-being, abundant love, and overall satisfaction are felt to be linked to your thoughts, words, and actions. However, according to the Buddhist principles of karma, the effects of your personal karma spread far beyond yourself. Buddhists believe that your karma also impacts the collective karma of a group — be it your family, your community, or the world population. Therefore, the ultimate goal is to use our karma to eliminate suffering for as many people as possible, in addition to ourselves.

Karma can serve as a clear and practical moral gauge that you can use in your everyday life. For example, when you're having negative thoughts about someone else, consider how these thoughts negatively impact your individual karma, as well as the collective karma of the world. Instead of simply indulging in your negativity, you may decide that everyone would be better served if you transformed these ideas into more positive and constructive thoughts.

Karma is like an extension of the Judeo-Christian golden rule: "Do unto others as you'd like to have done unto you." Imagine a future for yourself that entails a bounty of kind thoughts, compassionate words, and caring actions streaming toward you and from you. According to karma, this is an entirely possible outcome, completely in your own power.

There are a variety of popular expressions based on the ideas of karma, including: "You get what you give," "You reap what you sow," and "What goes around comes around.

"Regardless of your spiritual faith, the concept of karma is a useful one in determining how to lead a good life. By monitoring your intended thoughts, words, and actions, you can see for yourself how much good you're putting out into the world, and thus how much you can expect to receive in return.

***Now, friends, do you believe in KARMA?????

Jealousy

2007-07-03T07:07:00.000-07:00

If there is one demon that eats a man up and tears him apart, it is the Jealousy Demon. Men have such a terrible time handling jealousy.

Jealousy can make of a gentle man a roaring lion and even a homicidal maniac. The Jealousy Demon has provoked men to kill. It has destroyed more love relationships and collapsed more marriages than you can imagine. The Jealousy Demon is a tricky fellow. He pretends that hedoes his work in the name of love when in truth, he is all about low self-esteem, insecurity and controlling behavior.

Even the most solid man can, of course, get jealous if there is a real reason to be so. You become jealous when you fear losing your beloved. You might feel threatened by someone you sense could move into your relationship and steal your loved one. If you are correctabout your suspicions; if there is really something there; if the threat is real, then you have every reason to be jealous.

If, however, your jealousy is justified, it is because there is a crack in your relationship. Perhaps things are not going well and your beloved is tempted to play with fire. Maybe there is conflict and boredom and your partner is seen looking over the fence for some consolation.

This is when panic sets in and the Jealousy Demon goes to work on you with a fury. You feel threatened. You fear losing the love you cherish. You ask yourself what went wrong, why you are not enough for your beloved. You are hurt and perhaps even insulted because your loved one seems to be looking away and searching for someone else. You sense that you might be losing your grip on the relationship. You might even feel so upset that you wonder if you are going crazy.

If, however, you are jealous for no real reason, then the Jealousy Demon really has you running around in circles. Now you're imagining ghosts that are not really there. You're making accusations that are far fetched and off the wall. Your beloved is as loyal as can be, but you cannot believe it. Your low self-esteem and your lack of confidence in your ability to keep your beloved kick in and cause you to imagine all sorts of threats that only exist in your troubled imaginings.

You suffer even more than the jealous person who is justifiably jealous because you have nothing to go on. You can't prove anything and what you think is a real threat is proven false time and again. You have become paranoid. You are so possessive of your partner that it is difficult for your beloved to breathe.

All this creates a growing level of stress and tension which becomes unbearable after a time. It gravely damages your love and threatens to destroy it. And should your relationship survive and the Jealousy Demon remains firmly entrenched in your heart, then your relationship becomes a real hell. And if there is no true threat, your jealousy becomes a major threat in itself and could, in time, cause the collapse of the very love you want to save.

YOUR WORTH!!!!

2007-02-24T05:26:00.000-08:00

Where does negative thinking comes from?

Feeling of unworthiness - Self worth determines the quality of life you have..

S – To see yourself the way you would like to be, once you see it, you will feel it(In all areas of life health, wealth, love and success)

E- Elimination of negative thoughts and stop being critical about yourself

L- Loving yourself, despite your short coming and the way you are.“If God is w/in 100%, I am worth loving”

F- Figuring out ways to improve yourself. Begin simply, ask yourself can I improve the way I dress, walk, talk, smile, etc. etc.“if you believe in your heart, truly people like you” by being interested with them.

W- welcoming new ideas and changes…” never close your mind to new ideas”There will be changes in everybody’s life… everything is changing nothing is constant. The river looks the same but the water change.

O- Optimistic about life..One with God every day, all things are good in given time..

R- Remembering others… bday, personal notes of special to the person…How many times have you been given w/out asking.“ Before you call I will answer”

T- TithingHow much are you really worth, if you cam give the value of your service...Knowing who you are connected

H – Having goals and having dreamsTo the degree of your self worthies to the degree of your life

Being Perfect.....

2007-02-24T05:05:00.000-08:00

Perfect is not just winning...

Being perfect is about you and your relationship to yourself, your family and your friends…

Being perfect is about being able to look your friends in the eye…

And you know that you did not let them down.Because you told them the truth and

the truth is that you did everything that you could,

there was not one more thing that you could have done…

Can you live in that moment….

As best as you can, with clear eyes and love in your heart?

With joy in your heart

If you could do that, ladies & gentlemen,

Then Life is Perfectly Beautiful!!

The REASONS

2007-02-04T08:28:00.000-08:00

Why can't we let go of that somebody and of the feelings that we have for that person?

When we already know that it's time to move on and set ourselves free. What's holding us back from continuing our journey? There are other Roads to take and other doors to open but why do we keep ourselves contain ed in the same situation? When we already know that the same situation just keeps spinning in circles, when it seems like there is no end to all the things that we go thru, and yet we hang on until our patience run out, until we have sh ed the last tear drop, until every fiber of our being can no longer sustain all emotions.

Why can't we let go?

Good memorable moments for us are worth keeping. That is why we obsess over the thought or the situation, making it very difficult for us to move on. So we stay attach ed , mentally and emotionally, sometimes even sexually. We think that if we hold on to that special someone (who we think is special at that moment), that there would be a chance for things to change. And of course we always think that things would change for the better

For that matter, we give that "somebody" so many chances, we give ourselves reasons or should I say "excuses" not to end the so call ed "relationship". In the end, we find ourselves hurting and crying. We find out that we are just fooling ourselves, that no matter how long we stay in that relationship or situation and how much we give, NOTHING will change for the better. Rather, things change for the worse.

So why stay? Why can't we let go?

Some people stay in relationships feeling obligat ed to be a good boyfriend or girlfriend. They get scar ed of breaking up because they think that no one else will love them and accept them for who they are. Or maybe they think that they would not find anybody better than their bf or gf. This is even after they realize that the feelings that they have had already fad ed away. Some would feel like they "owe" that other person so much because of the good intentions that that individual show ed to them. And because of this train of thought, those people feel compell ed to be in a situation that they don't want to be in. So they get stuck and would later on complain that they want out but they don't have the guts to break lose.

This is not the feeling of love or being in love, it's the feeling of being secure with the other person. Because being secure means no more pretenses, no ne ed for facades, and no ne ed for mind games, just acceptance of all that's good and bad about someone. It is true though... why would you let go of somebody who loves you very much and who accepts you for who you are?

It's hard isn't it?

But the real question is... "Are you happy?" and "do you still love this person?" If the answer is yes... then there should be no doubt in your mind that this person is the one for you. That thru thick and thin, you will be willing to go thru hell and back with him or her. But if there is doubt..... Be fair, to yourself and to that individual. You are the only person who knows what is right... you know how you really feel.

On some occasions, people are drawn together because of physical attraction and \bsexo?\b. These are the people who get together NOT because they trust, love and understanding each other but they bond together because they act upon their ne ed s and desires. Some of us might ask: "Does it ever go beyond the physical or sexual phase?" Whether we dare to admit it or not, if two people spend enough time together, often times feelings get develop ed . It may not be as strong as falling in love but the attachment and passion is still there.

When feelings grow, there may be times where one feels more than the other, that person might get emotionally attach ed without wanting those feelings in purpose. And in order for things not to get spoil ed , that person would usually try to control how he/she feels especially if he/she does not have a clear understanding of where he/she stands in the other person's life.

People who are in this kind of pr ed icament typically put their guard up in fear of rejection; in fear that the other person would not feel the way they do; or in fear that if they reveal their real intentions and feelings, the other person might lose interest. . So they get content just staying in that situation without having any emotional involvement, with no strings attach ed and no obligations. But deep inside they hurt, they cry, they wonder. On the other hand, they remain involv ed maybe because they hope that they would end up having an intimate and meaningful relationship with their partner (dream on!)

Some may be so infatuat ed with the other person that they would mistakenly consider how they feel as being "in love". They get so blind ed by each moment they spend time with that someone because it makes them feel good and want ed even for just that instant. In the bottom of their hearts, they long for that person to care for them the way they do. The truth is ... nothing will change the way that other person feels for them. It will be no more than just a physical attraction, and enjoy-for-the-moment kind of situation.

It sucks doesn't it? But that is reality.

You could never make someone like you, care for you or love you. You could only give so much but in the end if that other person still doesn't see you as someone they could spend real time with, you have to learn how to cut him/her lose because you will end up just playing the role of a "meantime" boyfriend or girlfriend, no more no less.

In every relationship, once it ends, it always leaves someone feel a sense of longing and emptiness. It is worst when things are left unsaid and unfinish ed . So people tend to hang on to the good memories they had with the other person and they end up wondering and questioning themselves of what they have done wrong or "why this, why that", "what if...", or "how if". Typical for a broken-heart ed individual but how could he or she help it? It's like having someone read you a story without telling you the ending of it. Would you not wonder about what have had happen ed or how it end ed ?

It's the same thing when someone leaves you for no reason. You tend to "think too much"; you try to look for justification for that person's actions, It's mind-boggling when all these questions are running in your head and all you have for answers are merely speculations

You keep hoping that if only you could talk to that person one more time, you might be able to get some answers and have a peace of mind once and for all (but once you do get the answer, most of the time it's not something you would want to hear). So the more you think, the harder it gets to make a new start for yourself; the harder it is to accept the fact that what you have with that someone is over; therefore, you tend to hold on to your misery longer than you ought to.

So what is there to do?

All advises from family and friends could be helpful in times of heartache. It doesn't cure the hurt and pain but at least it eases it a little. Along the way, you will find yourself having more strength to go thru the day. For a lot of people, the company of friends or even just acquaintances is the best way to keep their sanity in tact. Whichever manner you try in order for you to get by is all up to you because despite all the advises everyone tells you, "Heartbreaks will last as long as you want and cut as deep as you allow them to go.."

WHEELS OF LIFE

2007-02-03T07:51:00.000-08:00

Once upon a time

there was a girl who lived on fairy tales.

she was happy in her world of princesses and happy endings...

she lived in a world

where dreams and make-believes were reality.

but the years rolled by too fast...

she had to leave her childish ways

and be the lady she had to be.

the world has so much to offer...

she had to finish a degree

and she did well on taking on a career

she always wanted to do...

but time caught up and soon

and she was forced to begin

another chapter in her life...

she had to become a woman too soon.

she dreamt of a simple life...

to build a home

and find pleasure in the simple joys it bring

but while everything seemed so easy and within reach,

somewhere along the way,

the ultimate dream failed

and the woman was left

to find herself again...

2007-02-03T07:42:00.000-08:00

with mE are my 3 lovely kids.....MICK KRYSTIAN EARL, ROELLE ABBY and MEA ROIMELEEN

Just go with it.....

2007-02-03T07:37:00.000-08:00

Some say you need to have focus to be able to achieve what you want...well i dont know...maybe i have spent most of my life focusing on certain things that its only now that i realized how much i missed out on a lot of things.

In a relationship, i think its just a matter of going with the flow...dont focus too much on what should be done, how things should be done or when things should be done... stop living on the good memories and weeping over the bad times, rather just let it go...Each day comes with its own surprise.

Of course this I speak for myself. I think the world is too beautiful and people, well, they make our lives richer...from a good or bad experience, everyone, one way or another, leaves us with a special lesson or experience.

As for me, I just wanna lay back, let the sun (or rain) touch my face and smile...if today isnt good, what the heck! there's always tomorrow.

MONOLOGUE....

2007-02-03T07:12:00.000-08:00

Most of the time people in love walks blind-folded. I dont mean to sound preaching because I went through that too. I would always find something to justify a wrong doing and even absorb the blame for arguments for the sake of having a peaceful day together.

But then I realized, am i willing to go as far as setting aside my self-respect for love? Do i consider my worth to be lesser than that of my man's? Love should make you become a better person...it should make you grow as partners and as individuals. What you do for the other's betterment should be just as beneficial to you. Before you can love someone, love yourself first. Because at end of it all, when everything else fails you only have yourself to love you.

I used to be a disaster myself and it didnt matter to me that I looked ugly or i get treated like a doormat. Until I realized, this isnt how we started. He used to be my prince. He was the center of my affection and attraction. I could blame him but then, who's fault is it really that i let him treat me that way? MINE. So I looked hard at myself and realized that it is entirely up to me to set the direction of my life. My destiny is in my hands and I vowed that whatever happens to my life, it is because that was my choice. I never had to resent anyone.

Dont be fooled by a lover's jaded idea that you have to give or give up everything for love. Sure love makes you ecstatically happy but if you end up losing your self-respect and dignity and values, where is the love there that should be for yourself? So, how far can I go for love? As far as where it would take me...

a DREAM

2007-01-31T04:59:00.000-08:00

Some times when I close my eyes
I can see you.
When I am alone I feel you.
When it is quiet I can hear you.
I long for those precious moments we had
and the time we once shared.
I hope and pray that some day
we can be together.
All I have now are the memories,
we once made.
So, when my eyes open
I can no longer see you.
When I am in a crowded room
I can no longer feel you.
When I am surrounded by the faces
and voices of so many strangers
I can no longer hear you.
As the day goes by
and night draws near
I then know
I will:

See, feel, and hear you

once again as

I dream.

the distance....

2007-01-31T04:51:00.000-08:00

The light fades
When you walk out of the room
My mind evades
The thoughts of being without you

It's the simple choices
That we'd never thought we'd make
Life's many chances
And our choosing which to take

I sit here lonely
Wishing I could call out to you
Across this distance
I wonder if you miss me, too

My heart is breaking
Only pictures can keep me sane
Or hearing your voice
That always seems to heal the pain

If I could go back
And do just one thing differently
I'd stay there with you
Or have you somehow here with me

2007-01-31T04:29:00.000-08:00

When I look into your eyes,

I know that some things are meant to be.

When I see you smile,

I know I will adore you for as long as I live.

When you hold me close,

I know what heaven feels like.

When you tell me that you love me,

I could fly to the moon.

Every time you kiss me,

I fall in love all over again.

When I can hear your heart beating,

I know I’ve found everything I’ll ever need…

I have traveled the world over, seen many beautiful places-

But you are the most wonderful thing I have ever laid eyes upon.

The years may make us old and gray,

But my love for you will never grow old.

I thank God every day

I have the greatest friend who ever lived.

You are my comfort, my heart, my soul-

The breath in my prayers, the love of my life.

You are not just my other half…

But my whole.

I am not afraid to lose myself in you;

You are the only one in the world for me.

I’m sorry for all the fights,

All things I shouldn’t have said.

I would do anything for you,

And I promise I will never leave you.

Other arms may reach out to me,

Other eyes may smile at me…

But as long as I live,

The road will only lead back to you.

Am I on the RIGHT TRACK?????

2007-01-26T10:20:00.000-08:00

Just asking myself this question....

My friends are asking me what makes me busy these past few days. I told them that I am on the other site, exchanging views and opinions, and what is that site? SAIPANBLOG...!!!!!

Actually, been busy also with my LABOR CASE in Saipan, the reason why i joined SAIPANBLOG, to voice out my feelings and insights about what's going on in Saipan right now...everyone in Saipan right now are talking about FEDERALIZATION, GREEN CARDS and SALARY/WAGE....

With regards to my LABOR CASE, some of my friends knew about it, especially those people who helped me out and lend a helping hand during my time in Saipan.It was filed AUGUST 2004, but until now...WALA PA RIN....!!!

So, I am figthing for my right, which I believe is the right thing to do...I did send emails to all people concern and who could possibly help me out with my case...read it and enjoy!

email from MR. JIM BENDETTO, Federal Ombudsman in Saipan, Office of Insular affairs:

"I have forwarded your e-mails to Cris Hilario. He will take care ofyou."

Jim Benedetto

email from Mr. CHARLES REYES, Press Secretary of for the Governor Fitial, CNMI

"Ms. Duran:

Since I am not familiar with the particulars of your case, I will forward your e-mail to our Department of Labor for an appropriate response.

I am sorry about your difficulties and I do hope your questions & concerns will be properly addressed. Thank you for your e-mail. "

"Dear Ms. Duran:Thank you for furnishing additional information about your labor case. I will forward these particulars to our Labor Department.

Please be assured that we do not condone any illegal labor activities in the CNMI. We are doing our best to enforce the law given our limited and decreasing resources, in view of the present economic downturn.

Happy New Year.

Charles Reyes"

At least, they did respond on my email, which I know a way of moving forward...one step in getting there about my Labor case...whew!

And only now, got the chance to talked to Mr. Chris Hilario through overseas call and tell me that he will make a letter address to Labor Office in Saipan for immediate hearing of my Labor Case and will send some papers for me to sign...WHOA!

It is not about the money,It is about WINNING and GAINING RESPECT from oppressor who keeps on laughing about it and about RIGHTS and for employers who are abusing their employees, If i win the case...What an accomplishment!

Now, asking again myself, AM I ON THE RIGHT TRACK??????

God said " NASA TAO ANG GAWA, NASA DIYOS ANG AWA!", which mean that I have to do my part and doing it now!

God Bless Me!

PLF First Anniversary

2007-01-26T10:15:00.000-08:00

January 13, Saturday...It was the celebration everyone is waiting for, the FIRST PLF (Passion, Love and Forgiveness)group ANNIVERSARY.

We, the members would like this anniversary TO BE a memorable one by doing a good will in behalf of the needy...so, thankful and grateful to all our sponsors, Elsa, Reggie, Jeff, Sarah, and more, especially the members who shared something or more so that we could go on and make it happen, our project which is the CHARITY WORK for the needy...CRIBS.

I didn't get the chance to go with them to CRIBS, blame it on the traffic jam...5 hours of travel from Laguna to Manila...whew! but, still some still go on with the project, sharing a little bit of their time and bringing some gifts to them...I SALUTE YOU!

I was in Megamall when my cellphone got BATTERY EMPTIED..no chance for me to reach where are my groupmates..teary eyed, really don't know what to do..I don't want to miss the fun! Blame it on me, for i haven't put a note where would be the anniversary venue...decided to go to Pasig, Anelle and Gina's house, Thanks to tita Lorn's, who welcome me with open arms..charged my cellphone and made some phone calls, luckily Edwin gave me the name and place where i should go.

Meeting Bhong at Robinson foodcourt was overwhelming..hayyy...thanks Bhong for picking me up and bringing me to the venue!

Inside the function..glad to see PLF members around new and old ones...met Edz, marie, sweet naive... and now i feel safe! We had fun until 11:30 pm but the night is still young and decided once again to make the most of it...next stop BAYWALK!

At 4 am we decided to end the day...saying our goodbye's to one another...arrived here in my place safe and sound at 7 am...

Thanks everyone for this nice and good experience of GETTING LOST again but HAPPY!

PLF...GO...MOVE FORWARD..A PLACE AND GROUP WHEREIN YOU COULD FEEL YOU REALLY BELONG!

the LIGHT

2007-01-26T10:06:00.000-08:00

I open my heart

to let a ray of sunlight,

I look up in the sky

Today was so clear and blue.

Why Am I like This?

i ask myself

Why there are times

i just want to hide away

behind a shadow and just drift away

I see a door openning ahead

with ray of light coming in

If i have to give up now

and not dare to continue

and walk throughall this

Then what am i living for?

What do i want in my life?

to live alone but myself and trust no one..?

Is this what i really want?

Life is so beautiful to be wasted away

when you have someone to share it with

I look up, yes i saw the stars

shinning so beautifully against

the darkness of the night

i thought they were like unfading smile

so sweetly touching the deepest

part of my heart, so vividly and so pure.

I reach out my hand to the light above me,

It's time i let go,

and put away all the fear in me

it's time i come out hiding in the dark

and embrace the bright new ray of sunlight

with the promise of a bright day ahead.

the ATTITUDE

2007-01-23T08:09:00.000-08:00

The longer I live, the more I realize the impact of attitude on life.

Attitude, to me, is more important than facts.
It is more important than the past, than education, than money, than circumstances,than failures, than successes, than what other people think or say or do.

It is more important than appearance, giftedness or skill
It will make or break a company, a church, a home.
The remarkable thing is we have a choice everyday regarding the attitude we will embrace for that day.

We cannot change our past, we cannot change the fact that people will act in a certain way.We cannot change the inevitable.
The only thing we can do is play on the one string we have, and that is our attitude.

I am convinced that life is 10% what happens to me and 90% how I react to it.
And so it is with you...

We are in charge of our attitudes

Sacrifices.....

2007-01-23T08:02:00.000-08:00

There are reasons that keep us from doing things. And there might only be one good reason in doing so. That reason could be the ultimate impact for a fulfilled destiny.

"Sometimes, the only ticket to HAPPINESS and CONTENTMENT is PAIN... You will never know how to appreciate success and good things that come your way if you haven't gone through hardships. I'm a believer of this and I know most of you do, too. You should never be afraid to get hurt because for every pain, there's a relief; For every ending, the a new beginning; and for every lacking, there's something that will fulfill..YOU!!!

I can say that I'm HAPPY and CONTENTED... That's the fruit of what I did. But at times, I wonder... What if I didn't risked?! What if I just left everything the same as they were!? Will I end up with the same direction towards happiness and contentment? I really don't know...

Nevertheless, I am very thankful... I don't regret it. Now, all I can hope is for everyone to feel the same way as I do. HAPPY, BLESSED and CONTENTED... I will pray for that.

GOD MOVES IN MYSTERIOUS WAYS... I love you my Lord... Thanks for... you know it already...

Giving UP!

2007-01-23T07:42:00.000-08:00

it is madness

...to hate all roses

...coz u got scratched

...by one thorn.

to give up

...on your dreams.

..coz one

... didn't come true.

to lose faith

...in prayers

...coz one

...wasn't answered

to give up

...all your efforts

...coz some of them

...failed.

to condemn all

...of your friends

...coz one

...betrayed you.

to not believe in love

...coz someone was unfaithful

...or didn't

...love you back.

to throw away all your chances

...to be happy

...coz you didnt succeed

...on your previous attempt.

do not give up

...do not give in

...keep believin

...continue livin.

symptoms......

2007-01-21T07:22:00.000-08:00

Why do I often find myself
Staring at nothing, scorning myself.
Pitying myself?

Why is it that the only things
That keep me company
Are the silent tears that come
When I can’t help them anymore?

Why must I always think of
The ecstatic but ephemeral
Moments we shared alone together,
Just you and me?

Why should these memories
Keep coming back to me
Making me long for you
Making me wish for what is past
To become present?

Denial?????

2007-01-21T07:16:00.000-08:00

I sense an icy spell shadowing upon us,

I feel despair seeping through my veins,

Blurring this vision with imminent tears.

Through the mist, I see yesterday

And hear my own laughter ringing in my ears,

Mocking my moments of solitude.

Love … so sweet an endearment fitted to only you,

Someone so close, yet very far to reach

Someone my heart loves with love

More maddening than love.

I see your image teasing my imagination

I hear your voice

And listen to its soothing tone.

I feel the warmth of your kisses

Touching the very depths of my soul…

Elevating me to great heights and ecstacy.

It was a beautiful yesterday with you,

My love, but what an agonizing tomorrow.

Today, I sight with utter disbelief

My eyes are crying with unshed tears

Because it is my heart that is bleeding

Slowly killing me,

I close my eyes to ease the pain,

But I find myself staring at the vast wilderness of the sky,

Searching for the answer to the sudden coldness

You have sent my way.

I LOVE YOU … but is it all in vain?

SOME WHY's.......

2007-01-18T21:36:00.000-08:00

A lover, who claims to love, can never hurt his/her beloved. Love demands that you care utmost for your beloved. You are concerned about their feelings. You make them as comfortable as possible. You keep them as happy as possible. You help them fulfill their dreams. You encourage them during tough times and you are always there for them. If you don't do this, there will be nothing called as love. The definition of love includes the qualities I mentioned.

This does happen. In many relationships it happens all through the life. Such couples need not worry to know about heaven. Their home is heaven. But in some relationships, if a lover wishes to break away for any reason including feelings of being treated unjust, the results will be harrowing.

Let us look at what will happen. As the lover who wishes to break away remembers all the investments she/he did for the love, she will feel that all has gone waste. All ur sacrifices are in vain. You did so much for many years, and now what is the result? This frustration and anger is directed towards the partner. At that time the lover who is breaking away forgets that worse will happen to one she /he will be leaving. Only selfish thoughts occupy the mind. This is the tragedy of such love.

The one who is left behind might have made more sacrifices and given a lot more for love. He/she gets bewildered at why this break up is happening? It is like a sudden earthquake.

That is why I asked,

that

if you love someone why hurt?

HURTING??????

2007-01-18T21:23:00.000-08:00

-letting go of a person you've just learned to love.

-reminiscing the good times you had with your ex.

-shielding your heart to love somebody.

-tring to hide the tears that involuntarily fall from your eyes

-loving a person too much.

-giving up someone you never thought of giving up.

-having the right love at the wrong time.

-taking the risk to fall in love again.

-hiding your relationship from someone else.

-controlling your feelings to avoid hurting a friend.

-thinking of him/her every waking and sleeping moment knowing all the while that she/he never even thinks a single thought of you.

-holding back only to find out when it's too late, you both felt the same way but were only scared to lose each other so much that you didn't let the feelings out.

-falling inlove w/ someone you didn't meant to fall inlove with.

-finding the perfect girl/guy with only one problem. she/she doesn't love you the way you want him/her to.

-helping the one you love to get closer to the one he love, your "friend".

-seeing the one you love crying because of someone else.

-having to hear, "...I already met someone new."

-agreeing to his/her wish to stay just "friends"

-asking his/her freedom back because it's what you think is the best for the two of you. or.. that..

-he can love her more.

-asking you to "forget everything that happened" and be friends again.

-hearing that you're just being treated as kuya/lil sis

-being denied in front of people, his/her friends most especially....

-telling you lies like where she's/he's been when actually he/she was with a "new friend" or an "old flame".

-pretending you're ok when deep inside you're dying.

-pretending you're strong and recognizing your weaknesses.

-lying in bed thinking of that special someone you can never have.

-having to face the fact that someone is capable of completely destroying the wall that you have set for yourself and leaving you weak and vulnerable.

-finding out that the more you try to hate him/her, the more you end up loving him/her even more.

-realizing your stupid mistakes that led to your break-up.

L O V E........

2007-01-17T10:42:00.000-08:00

Forget the people in the past and thank them for hurting you,
which led you to love the people you have right now.

When you love someone, you'll do crazy things you can't explain;
you'll deny the truth and believe in lies.
When you love someone, you sacrifice, give everything you've got and don't think twice.

You risk it all no matter what.
Everything in life is temporary because everything changes.
That is why it takes courage to love, knowing it might end anytime... having faith will make it last.

A friend is not one who would laugh when you laugh and cry when you cry.
He is the one who make you laugh and stop you from crying.

Love is the feeling we fall in and out of, and every time we fall off, we learn to hold on tighter... hoping that next time, we may never have to let go.

They say when love knocks at your door, open it.
But do you know that sometimes love enters through the back door and before you begin to notice it, it's on it's way out.

Have you ever loved only to let it go?
Have you ever hated someone and loved him so?
Have you ever missed someone so bad it made you cry?
Have you ever seen someone left alone without knowing why?

True: Lucky is the man who wins the first love of a woman but luckier is the woman who wins the last love of a man.

Love is not the right word to say when you feel guilty nor the right word to say when you like a person but love really matters when we share our thoughts, our minds, and our hearts...

Life has a way of changing things but not the joy that friendship brings, for friendship is like the shining moon, making each night a brighter one.

Love is not for beauty or color of the skin, but for a heart that is loyal within, for beauty fades and the skin would grow old but a heart that is loyal will never turn cold.

If someone hurts you, betrays you, or breaks your heart, forgive them for they have helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious to whom you open your heart.

Love is easy to feel, so hard to explain; so easy to get, so hard to let go; so easy to spell, so hard to define...and yet everyone is still taking the risk.

That's love!!!

2007-01-17T10:34:00.000-08:00

time
that’s all they say it takes
...to forget a love...to find the truth
...to lose yourselftime

how long does it take
...to just hold on
...to fight one last time
...to save yourselftime

when does it begin
...to heal
...to feel
...to redefine yourself

time
lost in the confusion inside
when will the answer be revealed
where did I go wrong
which second did I waste
that changed my life forever

time the choices are revealed
many paths to choose from
obstacles too large to fathom
grit your teeth and bear the load
make the leap of faith

time
.... that’s all they say it takes

LIES....why????

2007-01-17T10:18:00.000-08:00

Why do people lie?I understand lying to keep yourself out of trouble, though I don't condone it. What I can't comprehend is distorting facts without profitable reason. Lying about looks, hobbies, material things, etc. It's all so incredibly asinine.

Why would you lie to people online? Why does it matter what they think? You're probably never going to meet them. And if you are going to, then there is no point in lying because they would eventually find out.

If you're not happy with who you are and are lying to somehow "fix" that, why not just change? Who we are is constantly changing; it never stops. If you aren't satisfied with your weight, stop eating and go work out. Don't take 50 lbs off of yourself through conversation so some stranger that lives 8 states away will think you're hot.

Why lie about hobbies? If you don't play, then you don't play tennis. Who cares? Why make up a hobby so you have something to talk about with some girl in another country? "Oh really? I mountain climb too!" It's possible to carry on a conversation without chicanery. If you are interested in that hobby or it's a skill you want to aquire, then go for it! There is no shame in telling someone that you're in the process of learning. Everyone has to start at the beginning.

So do people lie for the benefit of others or for themselves? Are they lying because in their minds, they can be whatever they want? Why make up personas? If you're that creative, write a book. There is no need to generate drama. If you are continuously lying to yourself, then you need to get some help.

Lying because of embarrassment or the will to not disappoint? Fully understood. But the fact is that it happened. It doesn't matter what happens; only what you learn from it. If you learned from the experience, then who cares? It's in the past.

Lying with someone you love and care. Why? so, you won't hurt her/him? again, eventually the truth will come out.

And my biggest vexation, lying to friends. Why? Friends are the ones that are supposed to tell the truth, the ones you can talk to about anything. And yet people continuously lie to their friends, people they consider to be their best friends. Has that phrase lost all meaning?

Lying is a sickness and I want no part in it. If you've the symptoms, keep them to yourself.

UNexplainable....

2007-01-17T10:13:00.000-08:00

Sometimes we ask ourselves why do we meet the right people at the wrong time and why do we fall for them for the wrong reason?

Why do we fall out of love and hurt not only ourselves but also those who have learned to care for us?

These are questions we probably will never find answers too.

Every relationship would have to be put to the test for this is the only wat to strengthen its foundations.Unfortunately,those who have built roots on shallow grounds crumble and fall down.

They realized taht they probably have never loved their partners enough to be able to hold on, or maybe they were just too weak to resist the tempting lure of illicit affairs.

More often than not, people who indulge themselves in actions that will detrimental to their relationship are people who couldnt care more about how others would feel.

They are people who are passionately and romantically blinded by their emotions and selfishly seek out to find their own satisfaction and happiness at the expense of others misery.

Life is what we make it and love is the only thing that makes this world go round. We all fall in and out of the great cyclone of this sweeoing emotion.

Sooner, you'll walk down the aisle hand in hand, to were love and eternity have promise a happy ending

take the chance

2007-01-15T10:19:00.000-08:00

take the chance

Heart passed in memories
...in painful memories
Then it must be heal by someone new
...so very new
And take a chance in the light
...In tomorrow's light
To mend a broken heart
...and feel so right
And in the silence of the night
...of the peaceful night
When lips are wanting to kiss
...longing to be kiss
That will test and hold the promise
...to where happiness leads
This feeling shows something care
...soemthing really care
So eager to come and say..."you want to share"
...truly want to share
The wonders waiting for us there
...the passion calling us there
When life is passing in the mist
...in hte morning mist
A man and a woman in the night
...in tomorrow's light
To hold each other tight
...so very tight
So I came with you to take the chance
...really take the chance
To let our heart sing and dance
...to take the music of a glance, of a fleeting glance
To the sound of romance
...of a new romance

MY fAREWELL

2007-01-15T10:14:00.000-08:00

If you cannot stay because your heart no longer has the will
When the words I whisper to your ears no longer matter
Indeed perhaps I could never imagine the pain I caused
When in your eyes i were to be the one to uplift your world
Maybe you'd want me to hold on to your arm and pull back
If i held on long enough maybe you'd consider staying
But the chain of events have already laid out our paths
Your heart has closed its doors and I too have lost my will

If you must go on to find a man who will mend your heart
Heal the scars still burning fresh on your empty heart
Let the wind guide you and no longer my hollow words
Listen to the sound of the whirlwinds as you walk slowly
Perhaps during a silent moment you may hear my voice
Calling out your name as you bow down your head
Desperately trying to forget these steps taking you away
I too will be hoping I find a man to mend my heart

If farewells must all feel this way I wish to part silently
When two peole are no longer willling to listen to words
When doubts abound in two confused and broken hearts
But these feelings that once caused my face to smile
When a simple phone call from you took my breath away
They breathe yet a little of love in my veins for me to say
I am walking away in silence but your heart will feel
In the wind my heavy sorrow is caressing you silently

DO you...REMEMBER??????

2007-01-12T08:43:00.000-08:00

Remember when we were so in LOVE?
I do, because you were the one I could trust.

Remember when you would hold me tight?
I do, I didn't want you to let go I wanted it to last all night.

Remember when we use to argue about the stupidest things?
I do, because when you got mad it was the cutest thing!

Remember when our love was so strong?
I do, because i thought nothing could go wrong.

Remember when you said you loved me?
I do, I had a great feeling come to me.

Remember when you said you wouldn't lie?
I do, because when i found out all i did was cry.

Remember when you broke my heart?
I do, because you tore my world apart

Remember when you said if we break-up we can still be friends?
I tried but you thought i wanted you back so we had to end.

I took you for granted, I thought I had you,
But I didn't instead I ended up loosing you.

You treated me wrong after we broke-up,
How could you?, all i ever wanted to do was make up.

This is the last time you'll hear from me
,Well, unless you be a man and apologize so we can agree.

Life's too short we live what we can,
Just remember call me if you need a hand

YOURS.....not mine!

2007-01-12T08:39:00.000-08:00

your choice, not mine

Never will you convince me
that I caused all your unhappiness
and you are now happy now
that you're free from me

Never will you convince me
that my intentions weren't honorable
and even if you loved me
we would never have lasted

Never will you convince me
that my hurt and pain is not worthy
and we were just a mistake
for my heart says otherwise

Goodbye my love, your choice, not mine

"If one can not seem to forgive or forget, letting go might be a viable option in freeing the soul to live once again."

"Knowing personal imperfection may cause reflection of love through acceptance that dissipates guilt and a need to forgive."

"Being bombarded in life with many perspectives and judgments, may cause a person to find acceptance through exasperation and get over the guilt of it all."

"Relationships come and go within a lifetime, the lasting ones have highs and lows but somehow find a way to always endure even if only memory remains."

TRYING to....

2007-01-12T08:30:00.000-08:00

I've been trying to say goodbye
Trying to forget all about you
But every thought about you
Keeps rushing back into my head.
Why cant I just move on
And start loving someone new
It's cause you still have my heart
My soul, body and mind.
I tried to keep you here longer
But no longer could you wait
You needed to get rid of me
Because I couldn't fulfill you every need.
I tried to say goodbye before
But you hung up that phone on me
You don't want to talk about it
Or don't you have the courage too, to say GOODBYE
It seemed like you said you hated me
That we are not really meant for each other
Not that you didn't want to talk to me anymore.
For all the times that you have hurt me
And the times I thought you cared
I hope you can feel pain 10 times worse
Because your pain can't amount to my scars.
Why did you come back in the first place?
Was it to torment me and hurt me some more?
Did you just want to crush my heart?
And leave me laying there, crying, on the floor.
My final goodbyes
Have not come to you yet
Because one day I wish to be with you
Just once again.
Of all the times I tried to love you
With all my heart and soul
My friends were telling me to leave you
Because you were a player and you don't me anymore
But I didn't want to believe that was true.
So now I'm the one paying the price
For all the damage you've caused
Damage to my heart and mind
That can never be mended by hand,But by a true mans heart.
I tried to keep you with me
But that was all a mistake
So I'll leave you behind in the dust
And never come back never again.
I want to thank you
For at least saying you loved me and once your wife
Because those were the best words
That I ever thought there could be.
So my final goodbyes,
Are to thank you for giving me love
Or at least love I thought would be true
Till the end of time.

I WISH...........

2007-01-12T02:13:00.000-08:00

Alone in the room, in a silent night,
Reminiscing the past, things run so fast.
But why this heart of mine kept hurting,
Why this tears keeps running on my face.
Why does everywhere i go, it's you I'm longing for.

You're so unfair, you promised me of everything,
And I said, its you all I want and nothing,more.
You promised me your LOVE,an everlasting LOVE
And I glimpsed with a smile.
I LOVE YOU more than anything else in this,world.

But, what is this now,,,,
You let me alone in this emptiness,,,
You let me suffered, am I deserving this pain?
Would you tell me, where I go wrong?
Would you tell me,"I don't love you anymore"

You're so unfair, why don't you let me start again?
Why don't you let me love again?
Why don't you let me see the brightness of tomorrow?
I'm tired of waiting when it will end.

I wish I didn't met you,,,,
I wish I didn't believed on you,,,,
I wish I didn't expect more on you,,,
I wish,, I don't LOVE you so much,,,,,,,
How I really wish..the pain will end!

an AFFAIR....

2007-01-11T10:04:00.000-08:00

Do you know someone who is having an affair? Have you ever had, or considered having, an affair yourself? Why is it that so many people are cheating on their partners? What is it that makes someone want to cheat on his or her partner?

Affairs are not always premeditated; sometimes they just happen. Affairs can happen almost anywhere. They happen with people you meet at work, people you meet at the gym, or people you meet at the local bar. They can happen with people you have known for years, or with someone you have just met. The nagging question in my mind is, "Why do affairs happen at all?"

I am sure you have all been at a social gathering, like the office Christmas party, where the wine is flowing freely, people are flirting with one another, and everyone is having a grand old time. With this freely flowing alcohol, everyone is feeling great after that third or fourth drink, when all of a sudden, the flirting gets a little out of hand. One thing leads to another, and before you know it, two co-workers end up in bed together. It could be just a one-night stand, or it could be the beginning of an affair.

Another scenario: your partner is out of town and has been doing continuous business travel for several months. One night, one of your mutual friends drops by, out of the blue, and you invite them in for a drink. You are feeling lonely and welcome the company of this member of the opposite sex. Some flirtation occurs during the evening, and before you know it, one thing leads to the next, and you are having sex with this person.

Another one is at work, flirting and joking, then suddenly one day you were given time and space by yourself...the flare start, and you ended up having a relationship and an affair.

Most of us have witnessed affairs among people we know, and some of us even have had affairs ourselves. This kind of thing happens in the real world, and it happens all the time. Every time it happens, it happens for a reason and with consent from both parties.

What is the reason? There are a lot of reasons why people have affairs. In my opinion, people have affairs because they are bored in their current relationship, or because they have needs that are not being met within that relationship. In some cases, they are just thrill-seekers who become turned on by cheating on their partner. These three reasons have one common denominator: The people who are engaging in the affair are seeking something exciting, new and different.

Affairs begin with two people who find each other interesting and attractive. For whatever reason, the relationship escalates into romance and, finally, into sexual intimacy. People who seek romance and sexual intimacy outside of their primary relationship feel that their relationship is missing something, so they go out and they seek it from someone else.

An extramarital affair takes a great deal of energy. The lying, sneaking around, and destroying of evidence all take tremendous amounts of energy. The onset of guilty feelings about having the affair, in the first place, further zaps whatever energy the partner having the affair might still have left.

Why is it that people who have affairs do not simply put this energy into improving their relationships? It sounds like an easy concept, but, based on the vast number of people cheating on their partners, I surmise that such is not the case. Rational thinking indicates to me that it would be better to focus this energy on oneself and one's partner, rather than on someone else. I feel it is selfish to think that you can have your cake and eat it, too, but many people clearly think this way. You have to be honest with yourself and your partner: If you have tried everything -- and I mean exploring every possibility, going the distance -- and your relationship still is not working, you need to end it, so both of you can get on with your lives. Don't let your partner left hanging, hoping and wishing.

Do not complicate matters by having an affair. All you are going to do is end up hurting a lot of people. That's what happens, reliably, every time, when people have extramarital affairs.

EACH DAY....

2007-01-11T09:52:00.000-08:00

One day at a time—this is enough. Do not look back and grieve over the past, for it is gone; and do not be troubled about the future, for it has not yet come. Live in the present, and make it so beautiful that it will be worth remembering.......

The secret to life is living it one day at a time.

Our lives are made up of a million moments, spent in a million different ways. Some are spent searching for love, peace and harmony. Others are spent surviving day to day.

But there is no greater moment than when we find that life, with all its joys and sorrows, is meant to be lived one day at a time.It is in this knowledge that we discover the most wonderful truth of all. Whether we live in a forty-room mansion, surrounded by servants and wealth, or find it a struggle to manage the rent month to month, we have it within our power to be fully satisfied and live a life with true meaning.

One day at a time we have that ability through cherishing each moment and rejoicing in each dream. We can experience each day anew, and with this fresh start we have what it takes to make all of our dreams come true.

Each day is new, and living one day at a time enables us to truly enjoy life and live it to the fullest.

LOVE...understanding it!

2007-01-11T02:28:00.000-08:00

Some say love is foolish, a waste of time. But I think it's something special. I think it's something true and if I were to describe it in one word... I'd say love is you!

Someone asked me once, "Have you ever been in love?"... and it made me stop and think. Then I smiled because I was thinking of you.

I may not have shown you the real love in the way that you wanted me to, but I am more than happy to love you in the way I understood what love is.

The best part of loving is not wishing that the person loves you as much as you do but in feeling that you love the person far more than you thought you could.

It's hard to live alone. It's harder to choose someone you could love. But the hardest part of living is to admit that you have fallen in love with someone you didn't mean to love from the start.

There would come a time when we have to stop loving someone not because that person has started hating us but because we found out that they'd be happier if we let them go.

When you fall in love, there's always the risk of getting hurt.

Love is restless, love's a flirt. Love has places to go and people to hurt.

Don't find love, let love find you.

That's why it's called falling in love coz you don't force yourself to fall, you just fall.

Would you go for someone who loves you but for you he's only a friend or would you rather go for someone you love but for him your only a friend?

Or, Would you go for love if you know that there's someone who will be hurt..or just let it go, so, you won't hurt anybody's feelings?

A guy and a girl can be "just friends" but one point or another, one of them will fall for the other, maybe temporarily, maybe at the wrong time, maybe too late or maybe, just maybe forever...

A bell ain't a bell unless you ring it.
A song ain't a song unless you sing it.

Love in your heart wasn't placed there to stay.
Love is not love unless you give it away.
Loving is not how you forget but how you forgive, not how you listen but how you understand, not what you see but what you feel and not how you let go but how you hold on!

Letting go of someone dear to you is hard but holding on to someone who doesn't even feel the same is much harder.

Giving up doesn't mean you're weak. It only means that you're strong enough to let go.
We can't gain if we don't let go, for there is no love without tears, there is no happiness without sacrifice and there is no forever without goodbyes.

If you love someone, set him free. If he comes back, he's yours. If he doesn't, he never was.

When confused about love, follow your heart. It may not always be right but you will have memories that will make you smile and say: "Sh*t... nagkamali na naman ako..."

It really hurts to love someone who doesn't give you the time of day, but what will hurt more is when you realize that someone that you don't give the time of day loved you and gave it up coz you loved someone else.

Love is a contradiction. It's hard to find but easy to lose, makes you feel good but hurts you so bad, opens your eyes but makes you blind, fills up your heart then tears it apart.

Love is like air. You never know it's there until you feel it and you never know it's gone until you need it.

from ME to YOU....

2007-01-11T02:16:00.000-08:00

If Tomorrow will find you Walking away...
and never even looking back I would still want to say...
Thank You
For the magic of every moment
For the love that throbs sweet In rippling currents that inside me And fills my whole being
For the fondness of your gaze
Thank you for today...
If I am but one season
One short season in your life
Know that I will still want to..
Thank you
For every hour
Spent in loving quiet
For all the days
You gave me you
Thank you! Thank you for my season...
I hope you get the chance to read this...
You know who you are! 16 years was somehow a mixture of happiness and sadness...
You might not believe, but for me it's REAL...though, sometime shown in wrong ways ( just realized it! )
"Goodbye"... the hardest word to say and toughest word to forget...
Key Learning: Don't say the phrase "iloveyou" often because it might cheapens it's value...
Again, thanks! for you made me feel special(whether it was just a stage play or not!)
Wishin you all the best in life! Stay Safe

LOVE is......

2007-01-11T02:08:00.000-08:00

LOVE DEFINED

To love is like a piano. First, you must learn to play the rules, keys and notes. Then, you must forget the rules and play from your heart. When you love, you must not expect anything in return for if you do, you're not loving but investing. If you love, you must learn to accept pain or if happiness, you're not loving but using. Love can make you happy but oftentimes it hurts, but love is only special when you give it to which it's worth. Follow your heart. It might not always be right but despite the pain you will have memories that will make you smile even once and every rare while.

Sometimes, the love that we are looking for is just right in front of us-too close for the eyes to see, so close your eyes and let your heart see it for itself. Sometimes it's good to be "alone" but that doesn't make us lonely. It is not a matter of being present "with" someone; it's a matter of being "to" someone. Love has it's own time, seasons and own reasons! You can't ask it to stay, you can only embrace it as it comes and be glad that for a moment in your life, it was yours! Love no matter how hard you find it, you won't see it...but when you're about to give up, it comes.

Love is not looking at each other; it is looking at the same direction. Love is like a roller coaster: there are some downs, but when you get to the ups, when you feel that high, nothing can pull you down. All the down just disappear. A memory of true love is like a favorite song, no matter how many times it plays again, you'll never get tired of it. In loving someone, never regret what you do, but regret what you didn't do. Love is like a knife, it can stab the heart or it can carve wonderful images into the soul that will last a lifetime. It is not the amount of time we spend with our lovers that matters; it is how much we think about them that counts.

Love is not the matter of counting the years but making the years that counts. Love is like standing on wet cement that the longer you stay the harder it is to leave. But you can never go without leaving your shoes behind. Lust is when you love what you see. Love is when you lust for what's inside. You don't love someone worth dying for rather love someone worth living for. The test of true love doesn't come when you're together. It comes when you part ways and realize that in spite of breaking ups; the love is still there. To love someone is to know that you're gonna get hurt but still doing your best for your love to be noticed, even if you don't stand a chance in owning that person's heart. Gravity cannot be held responsible for people falling in love. When your love is true, sincere and real, what the lips hide the eyes reveal.

You may love someone for what he does, for what he is, or for what he can be. But if you love someone but can't explain why, then that's what we call true love. When you love, there's no such thing as loving a little, but loving all the way. It may not ask you to give up your life but will require lots of sacrifices. It's a lifetime venture in which we're always learning, discovering, and growing. Love weakens when there's more doubt but we learn to trust in spite of the doubts.

Lastly, love is not something we choose... it choose us. Love has it's own way of expressing itself it may not be obvious in our hearts but it never to fail to hit it's mark the HEART!

DIFFICULTIES....PLEASE READ!

2007-01-10T09:43:00.000-08:00

To turn your back to someone who really want to be with you
To be pathetic to someone who you always want to sympathize with
To let someone feel that he is neglected when in fact he’s very important
To show someone that you don’t mind when in fact you care lot
To pretend not to know what he’s up to when in fact you know him a lot his details
To avoid someone when in fact you want to take a stolen glance
To find reasons for doing things you don’t usually do when you know he’s the only reason for doing so
To treat someone realize that his presence is naturally welcomed when in fact its creates an extraordinary excitement
To say things contrary to what you feel
To laugh a loud when in fact you really want to cry you heart out
To set someone free when you feel he’s all that you have and the one you love
To pretend you’re not hurt when he’s with someone else but you cry inside
To keep your feelings from someone when in fact you’re dying just to hear whisper
To run away when in fact you want to stay
To let you know that you’re that someone I’m talking about…

Anyone who has gone through the agony of losing someone she/he loves so much will still wish against all odds to have that love back again. But, sometimes a love lost is a love gone forever. No amount of hope can bring back to life a relationship that just died a natural death. Set yourself free. Let your heart spread its wings and fly. Remember, it may rain for 40 days and 40 nights, but still will not rain forever. One day the pouring will stop and there will be plenty of branches where you can find rest. One of these is where you will build your nest and start over again. It’s never too late. Remember you may find love and lose it but “WHEN LOVE DIES, YOU NEVER HAVE TO DIE WITH IT”.

Remember you cannot be a redeemer all your life. The best way to weigh a relationship is out it in the test of fire. You cannot be a sooner of your mistake forever. Remember, we all fall and make wrong decisions but our blunders are meant not to be burying us deep in misery but to teach us the valued lessons of life. Loving is always a learning process. With love, we learn how to care and sacrifice. We learn to share and reach out. We learn to be UNSELFISH AND GIVE MORE THAN WE CAN. And when everything doesn’t end well, we learn how it feels like to fall and get hurt. But learning doesn’t have to end there. After our fall, we strive to get back on our feet and move on.

This is where we learn that “LIFE DOESN’T END WHERE OUR HEARTACHES BEGIN”.

THERE IS NO FUTURE IN A RELATIONSHIP OF LIES AND SELFISHNESS. It’s true, there is life in love. But, there can still be life even after losing love if you leave the past behind and let your heart heal and give you the chance to find your self again.

The success of a relationship lies not only in the beauty of its beginning but in its consistency. Make a choice not on impulse but a decision based on a healthy balance of mind and heart. Let us always remember that… “HAPPINESS IS NOT A MATTER OF DESTINY BUT A MATTER OF CHOICE”.

There comes a time in our lives when we chance upon someone so nice and beautiful and we just find our selves getting so intensely attracted to that person. This feeling soon becomes a part of our everyday lives and eventually consumes our thoughts and actions. The sad part of it is, when we begin to realize that this person feels nothing more for us than friendship. We start our desperate attempt to get noticed and be closer but in the end our efforts are still unrewarded and we end up being sorry for ourselves.

“YOU DON’T HAVE TO FORGET SOMEONE YOU LOVE. WHAT YOU NEED TO LEARN IS HOW TO ACCEPT THE VERDICT OF REALITY WITHOUT BEING BITTER OR SORRY FOR YOUR SELF. YOU WOULD BE BETTER OFF GIVING THAT THE DEDICATION AND LOVE TO SOMEONE MORE DESERVING”

Don’t let your heart run your life, be sensible and let your mind speak for itself. Listen not only to your feelings but to reason as well. Always remember that if you lose someone today, it means that someone better is coming tomorrow.

“IF YOU LOSE LOVE, THAT DOESN’T MEAN THAT YOU HAVE FAILED INLOVE. CRY IF YOU HAVE TO, BUT MAKE SURE THAT TEARS WASH AWAY THE HURT AND THE BITTERNESS THAT PAST LEFT YOU WITH. LET GO OF YESTERDAY AND LOVE WILL FIND ITS WAY BACK TO YOU.

And when it does, just pray that it is the love that will stay and last a lifetime.

A woman on the rebound could easily fall for sweeping emotions and be made to falsely believe that she finally stumble upon the right man when what she just found is only someone to cover up for the love she lost. A man who makes a promise in words and not with actions may never live up to fulfill them. “ITS TRUE THAT LOVES CAN WAIT FOREVER. BUT IT IS CRAZY STUBBORNLY HOPE FOR SOMEONE WHO DOESN’T EVEN CARE OR UNDERSTAND HOW WE FEEL. Love makes us see things through rose colored glasses. Most of the times we fail to recognize the danger sign that light up along our way. This feeling you have nurtured for so long isn’t healthy anymore. You must realize that you have to let go now before it consumes you and your sanity. There is always a time to thinks and stop. A time to be sensible and not allow our hearts rule over our head.

“YOU DESERVE TO BE HAPPY NOT IN THE ARMS OF A MAN WHO KEEPS YOU WAITING BUT IN THE ARMS OF SOMEONE WHO WILL TAKE YOU NOW AND LOVE YOU FOREVER”.

If loving a person who is attached to someone else is a crime, then maybe, many of us would have been jailed long before we realize what its consequences could have been.

Loving someone is never a sin. It is what people do out of love that sometimes makes it all wrong. The selfish desire to want that person is what makes it a sin, especially if we know that we are stepping and hurting other people and we are ruining other's lives.

“DON’T THINK ONLY FOR YOUR FEELINGS FOR REAL LOVE DOESN’T HAVE A PLACE FOR SELFISH PEOPLE”. When there is love, there is always sacrifice.

When we love someone, we never easily give up on that person. Even if we get hurt badly we always try to find a way to ease the pain and learn to understand and forgive. We justify all the wrondoings. Loving too much doesn’t hurt. It is when we expect this love to be reciprocated that we begin to seek approval and acceptance of the things we have done and when we are taken for granted and rejected, we curse the very same love that we once freely and happily offered.

“DON’T WASTE YOUR TIME WAITING FOR SOMEONE WHO NEVER REALLY CARED ABOUT HOW YOU WOULD HAVE FELT. OPEN YOUR HEART AGAIN AND GIVE YOUR SELF THE CHANCE TO FIND THE MAN WHO WOULD MAKE LOVING WORTH THE PAIN AND THE SACRIFICE”

.Just like anything else, our love grows weak and dies if not taken cared of. It can keep up with pain only to a certain extend. Beyond that, it withers without any hope of recovery and soon dies.

“GOD WAKES US UP IN THE MIDST OF A STORM TO TEACH US A LESSON. HE TAKES AWAYS PEOPLE WE LOVE, SO WE CAN LEARN TO VALUE LOVE IT. HE MAKES US CRY SO HARD SO WE CAN SEE CLEARLY WHEN WE OPEN OUR EYES. HE MAKES US BITTER SO WE CAN REALIZE THAT THERE IS NO GENUINE HAPPINESS IF WE THINK ONLY OF OUR NEEDS AND NOT OF OTHERS.”

Relationship built on jealousy and selfishness is doomed from the very beginning. The hardest part of losing love is letting go and moving on. Most of us cry endlessly over thing that could have been but never will be.

“God allows us to experience pain to make us stronger and better persons. He will see us through the most trying and difficult times in our lives and only if we put our trust in Him can we learn to find joy in our tears and happiness in our sorrows.”In many failed relationships, separation comes as the inevitable choice but moving on always proves to be twice as difficult as letting go. Sometimes, the end of a relationship is imposed on us, but our choice to hold one is always beyond the control of circumstances. Letting go is a decision that can never be dictated on us. It is a resolve we make ourselves. Acceptance is the key to a new beginning and time is the healer of all wounds. Even if the storm casts its fearful shadows, there will always be light after our darkness and loneliest moments.

There is always hope for those who believe. There is always a chance for those who try.

“LOSING SOMEONE WE LOVE MAY NOT BE A LOSS AT ALL BUT A BLESSING BECAUSE SOMEONE EVEN MORE DESERVING IS YET TO COME”.

There is nothing wrong in expressing our feelings to someone we love, but “WE MUST ALWAYS BE SENSITIVE TO THE SIGNALS THAT TELL US WHEN TO RATIONALIZE AND BE SENSIBLE”.

There comes a time in our lives when we would fall for someone who wouldn’t be as interested as we are because his attention is focused on someone else. There are many times when we love but don’t get loved in return.

“THERE IS TIME WHEN THE SIGN AHEAD SAYS STOP BUT WE STILL STUBBORNLY HEAD ON”.

We would say our love is unconditional. But if it really is, then we should never feel bad. But why do we get frustrated when love turns sour? Because we still subconsciously seek acceptance and assurance from the people we care about.“

BEING IN LOVE CAN BE THE MOST WONDERFUL THING WE COULD EXPERIENCE BUT IF THE FEELING BEGINS TO CONSUME OUR WHOLE BEINGS, THEN WE HAVE TO STOP AND LET OUR MINDS AND NOT OUR HEARTS DICTATE OUR ACTIONS. ONLY WHEN WE LEARN TO ACCEPT OUR FATE AND UNDERSTAND THE MEANING OF OUR FAILURES CAN WE TRULY GO ON WITH LIFE WITH OUT HAVING TO LOOK BACK AND CRY OVER THE THINGS THAT COULD HAVE BEEN BUT WILL NEVER BE……..